Loser

Yep that is me a loser... I have lost... not my mind its been gone for years now... I started my diet 2 weeks ago and have already lost 5 pounds, its wonderful, I feel better since I have been eating better... I am proud of myself, I am 5 pounds closer to my goal weight... I really hope I can stick with it and not get discouraged... That is my problem, low confidence and esteem cause me to get discouraged and upset easily... I CAN DO THIS!!! I KNOW I CAN!!!

Photo of the Day & Broken threads...

First the photo of the day, pretty isn't it? I figured this dreary Friday needed some brightening up :)

Can you believe it I did my hair and make up AGAIN wow. i feel a bit better today since I vented, I have had the best comment and private emails THANKS!!

And now, the horror, the thing all of us tatters fear and can sympathize with me. i bought this vintage thread off of Etsy ahle back... I am guessing it was very vintage. I was pulling a LJ tight and snap! OMG?!?!!?!?!

it broke and i just sat here in awe that it broke ... :( I was so happy to be back in creativity mode I had started designing something with some size 80 thread a size in which i have never ever used and it was going pretty well until the dreaded snap...

i have since started over in size 20 just to see how the design will work up..

Today Debbie and i are going shopping WOO HOO I so cant wait. My daughter has a field trip today too. I cant help but worry the little girl she has to partner with is a drama queen, she loves to make Shannan feel bad so she will do what she wants her to. They are going to Del Grosso park.

I better get a moving here because if I dont I will doze off in my chair

Heather

Did you ever have one of those weeks?

Where it seemed everything was just BAD!!
Lets see I won't say a whole lot on this subject BUT I have people who are un-married and child-less telling me that I am basically a BAD mother, you know I don't feed my kids etc... Now if that was the case I can imagine my kids would be horribly under weight, sickly, and tiny. and they are NONE of these things. Heck I haven't even had them to the doctor this shcool year for illness. That is AWESOME!! But you know I am a bad mother... I hate it I am tired of it, but what can I do? Nothing like always, all the comments and remarks, people think I will not hear them. Whatever... My friends helped me alot this week I wasn't in the best of moods and spent alot of time in tears. I am so tired of hearing the non parents tell me my sons issues are just an excuse, spend a day with him, a bad day, the days he mis-behaves and cries because he don't fully understand why he does some of the things he does, its heart breaking and being a young child you can't fake that stuff. Even his threapists agree that its not something to be ignored, it needs fixed now. That is why i am going through all this stuff. I am angry, I am hurt, i am upset. There are some people in my life who I thought I was very close to only to find out what I already knew, they are all for themselves, they know it all, I do not matter anymore, I was only good when I did and gave them things, live and learn I guess...
Wednesday I had Nathaniels 3 month evaluation and I had paper work to fill out for him going to the summer treatment program (summer camp) I put money in the meter I had to scour the Envoy for change because i had non in my purse ohhh well we found some but it wasnt enough I got a parking ticket... WONDERFUL it was only $3 but still I wasnt happy but then laughed it was kind of funny I guess. I have been tatting off and on this week there were days when i touched it and it just went all wrong...
Tomorrow is FRIDAY woo hoo!!! I cant wait to spend the 3 day weekend with David and the kids. and tomorrow Debbie and I are going craft shopping :) i cant wait. I need to decompress and just chat. I am so glad to have met her she is awesome finally I have a normal friend and she loves tatting too :0)
The kids get out of school on June 8 I cant wait I need things to slow down a bit. On June 14th Nate starts camp, he likes it and it will do him good.
If i do not make it back before Memorial Day, Have a safe and wonderful holiday.
~Heather

Monday: Online Tatting Class

In just 2 hours I will be teaching my Minnies Love heart in the online tatting class
http://hajdesigns.webs.com/Minnies%20Love.pdf
come join the fun

Saturday goodies

WOW its Saturday already, actually Saturday night...

Yesterday I went to Debbies, I so love our tat and chat, time just goes too fast, we don't tat much mostly chat hee hee..

I took my kids to my mom and dads for the weekend YES!!!!! Its nice and peaceful and I get some much needed 1 on 1 time with my hubby.

Today we went and got a new water tank, he bought me a new air conditioner our old one makes me sick with the mildew that is in it. Then I went to michaels and got me some goodies BEADS lol

And we got home and I checked the mail and found a nice package from Tudy from Tudys Craft Cupboard I responded to her pay it forward give away thing ?? and I forgot about it imagine my surprise :D

Its beautiful I got a nice bag, a little zipper bag, some cinnamon mints which are good :) a beautiful little sachet that I can add my own scent to, and some nice tatting thread... THANK YOU TUDY :) you are too kind...

Today was a good day I am tired, tomorrow is Sunday already I guess I will have to go pick up my kids *sigh* the weekends are too short LOL but I miss my monkeys...

And a reminder Monday night at 8:30 est I will be teaching in the online tatting class woo hoo

Tatting Tea Tuesday May 18, 2010

Tatting Tea Tuesday... what can I say about today other than AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! that was NOT a sigh it was a scream.

Nate had a BSC appointment today and I had to be more involved in it than I wanted too... Nate has been getting worse lately instead of better, (I love stress) His appointments are now weekly instead of every other week (more running YAY) And I have to make him another appointment to possibly see what is going on up in his noggin and meds, I really dont like the idea of him being on meds again but if he needs it and it helps I guess it will be good. So once that is said and done it might turn into 2 times a week running to Ebensburg.

 As I waited in the office for Nate to be out of his session I tatted a bit. This is something I started last night and I cant wait to re-do it in different thread and possibly with beads. This design requires 2 different sizes of thread, why 2 different sizes, who knows its just the way I roll lol I was using up some size 10 and size 20 on shuttles to empty them :) The pattern will be available once I get it perfected. There are NO joins at all. just chains, SLT, SS, R, and SR. Easy and fun. ohhh and 2 shuttles were used.

Its been raining here and raining and raining and... you get the point. its got me in a mood too I guess.

I guess I should be happy today though I woke up to a conversation on my Etsy Shop that I was included in a treasury. http://www.etsy.com/treasury_list.php?room_id=131778

And I will be teaching in Georgias online tatting class on May 24, during the 8:30pm EST class I will be teaching my "minnies love" pattern.

David came home in a piss poor mood (pardon my language) he isnt talking to me and he is being ignorant, just what I wanted today, whatever...

Day 2 of my diet is going well I made myself some really delightful stir-fry and its diet friendly YUMMY!

Ok off to deal with crappy attitudes and get 2 kids ready for bed....

Whoa where on earth did the time go??? Blog~A~Versary #2

I knew this month was May. I knew my 2nd year of blogging was in May but somehow I didn't realize it WAS May lol Wowser where did that year go... I am also near my 500th post. So when I hit 500 posts I may do something special, not a give away this time but something else :)

I started my diet (I really am not considering it a diet so I don't get in that mode of ICK! a diet) did good so far today. Had my Special K cereal, cup of coffee with organic sugar and a little creamer, and just drank a nice glass of green tea with mint. I am going to try no soda today but my Mountain Dew will probably call my name later lol. I walked for an hour as well just around here because its raining again!

Ned is laying on my bed snoring like crazy, Ginger is laying under my legs  in the dip of the chair. I am going to be adding some more photos to my photography Etsy shop and I even started to make the sets again here is an example: the larger picture is the main one, the rest are altered :D

Until next post... HAPPY TATTING

Weekend Blah...

I was excited for Saturday after a converstation with hubby Friday evening.... he asked me where do you want to go? Buttermilk Falls i replied, Ehhhh was his reply so i looked up different parks for us to go to. Saturday came and he got mad about it and we didnt go but we did have to run for him. :( and we went out to eat mind you I love Chinese but i was angry. Dont even get me started on my son, Grrrrr!! I was still mad.
Today came (sunday) and he talked of going somewhere today again where ever i wanted. ok the park. then he complains we have no extra money for gas but we could go to indiana to lowes (what he wanted to do again) i left and went to the grocery store. i am mad i was so counting on a few hours out having a good time and just not thinking of anything but enjoyment. NO!! whatever. I so cant wait for everyone to go to work and school tomorrow. I want and need a break. I am starting a diet tomorrow not really a diet, its the special k challenge cereal for breakfast and lunch and normal supper. i did it before and I have to do it again. I plan on walking more too even if its not in the woods all the time, i got a giant yard I can walk around a few times ...
I really didnt get to tat alot this weekend due to me being mad, I did sort my beads today Shannan helped me so i gave her a bunch as a reward and 2 cases. She is happy I just hope she uses them and they arent scattered around the house.
ok I am off to try and tat for now...
Heather

Tatting Tea Tuesday, May 11, 2010 & Photo of the Day!!

First I have to show you this photo I took the other day... Its amazing... I am even in awe of some of my photos and think, did I take this? This one you definately have to click and open up to see the larger view. CHECK IT OUT and let me know what you think.

Now for Tatting Tea Tuesday. I am drinking a nice large glass of Southern Style Sweet Iced Tea. My favorite. I had some running to do today and got home late. I did tat some early this morning. I finished this which is perfect length for a necklace or earrings they are a bit long but I think they are georgous!

I am still upset about my son with what he said on Saturday, and last night he got mad at me and said "just don't talk to me" :( KIDS!!!

Its kind of snowing here today snowy slushy sleet CRAP!! yuk... My allergies are still getting me I pretty much sound like a duck LOL the reason I said duck is my daughter said that one time when my voice was all squeaky and it cracked me up...

Here are photos of the shuttles hubby got me for Mothers day! He got them at the Antique Depot, the lady who sold them to hubby was just watching the booth for someone, but she knew all about tatting and said how wonderful it was that people are still doing it. He bragged me all up. LOL

The most expensive one was the black one it was $15, the other 2 were $10 each. I know for a fact that the Susan Bates shuttle is older because look at the price 39 CENTS wow could you imagine if shuttles only cost that much :D lol Now the red one I told hubby I already have one BUT upon further inspection the red one I have that I bought a few years ago was made in China and this one he bought is made in the USA. The black shuttle says nothing. I really need to find a resource book with old shuttles and their value what era or years they were made blah blah blah... I have several assumed antique shuttles and would love to see if I got taken or if they are REALLY old.

I still can't show you my moms Mother's Day gift because she hasen't gotten it yet, I don't know if I should go tomorrow or wait til I am all over this crap... Grrrrr! Hubby and I decided the kids will stay Saturday night :D I need  a break especially from my son. I really don't know how Crazy Mom Tats does it...

On Friday also I decided to take some time for myself I dyed my hair a nice auburn color and put highlights in myself as well and it turned out really nice. I usually do dye my own hair but have never attempted highlights. Hubby wanted to treat me to a pampering day but the cost was UNREAL my hair is about shoulder length and kind of thick and for cut style color and highlight it was going to be $140 give or take $20... YIKES!!! I wanted to hide my grey lol my hair is a natural red and this is a bit darker than mine but still has red in it :D

Not sure if you can see the copper colored highlights with the auburn. Yep and those are natural curls too they were a bit tamer than usual today, thank you Suave Mousse lol

I guess that will be all for now who knows I may be back for more :D

 

Mother's Day

Sunday, May 9, 2010 was mothers day...
I will start with Saturday May 8, 2010. Went to Debbies house :D Had a great time chatting while the kids played together her son is so adorable and funny. The kids all played together and there wasnt 1 fight between my kids that is until we left they didnt want to go...
Got home to a lovely gift from my husband, 3 shuttles from the Antique Depot. A black one, A red one and a silver metal one and the original price on it was 39 cents. I know for a fact that one is old...
Hubby decided to take me out to eat for supper. We were getting ready and the kids were in the car I just get in and hear my son telling my daughter to keep her mouth shut... hmmm something happened or he had done something AGAIN! She asked me politely, mom can I tell you outside of the car? I said yes so we walked away from the car and then she told me... Shannan: Mom Nate said something that I know would make you sad, but please dont be sad because I love you... Me: Ok tell me honey. Shannan: just please dont cry ok mommy. Me: ok I wont Shannan: Nate said that Chris has a good mom, not like my mom. Me: (jaw drop) did he really say that. Shannan: yes... I knew she wasnt lying because my son says things like that all the time just not as harsh. I was sad, hurt and angry. That kid makes me so upset all the time, no wander I am crazy LOL I am still angry with him because he is acting like I should have forgiven him already. NO... He didnt even apologize and he said I was only joking. I know he wasnt.
My throat was feeling weird all day too you know like when you sleep with your mouth hanging open all night, well it didnt leave plus I been battling allergies for a few weeks now. Saturday evening it was evident it was a bad allergy attack... My voice was going my throat is raw, but not real sore. If you suffer from bad allergies you know what I am talking about.
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Woke up Sunday feeling miserable as all heck. My voice sounded worse and i couldnt talk for long without choking and coughing (gotta love allergies) Hubby decided to go to the store and get some things for lunch and supper since I was under the weather and it was Mothers day... He came home with frozen pizzas and bbq chicken wings YUM! I wasnt able to go see my mom either due to me not feeling that great I even had a slight temperature :( I didnt want to make her sick she has way too much to deal with at home with my dad, sister and brother at times. I felt so terrible not being able to go, I was worrying all day that she was mad or upset that I couldnt come over :*( I really hope she isnt... We are going over on Wednesday both kids will be home due to appointments that day. I will show you her gifts I made after Wednesday because she keeps an eye on me ;) lol She likes to look at all the pretties on my blog and I dont want her to see her gifts yet.
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I took the plunge and am going to try selling my photos again I have an etsy shop look above you will see it.
I am tired this morning, I couldnt sleep that well due to my sons actions, stuffy head and weird feeling throat. Ginger is all snuggled up with me and its not helping lol

til next post possibly tomorrow

Tatting Tea Tuesday May 4, 2010

This will be short as I want to shower before the crew gets home. I know its a day late. I did tat, but I cant show you or even tell you what it is or was. I was threatened with having my shuttles threads and all my tatting supplies taken away from me LOL only kidding but I am sworn to secrecy for now...

And the winner is...

Remember way back when I had this post
http://thetarnishedtatter.blogspot.com/2010/03/sometimes-i-cry-when-i-cook.html
I had a give away announcement. Its not that I forgot i just got side tracked
So without further a-do the winner is
DEBBIE
I will give you your prize when I see you on Saturday :D

Carl, Early Mommy Day Gift, Organization, & Marbles

Since I have not blogged in a few days I got lots to say. Not Really. Well Maybe? Who Knows.

First this is my early Mother's Day gift. Isn't my husband the best? YES!! 3 cases for my tatting supplies and beads. I have them mostly filled already I have the small one filled with SHUTTLES lots and lots of shuttles, I have a bit of room in it I told David I needed a few more, No I don't LOL

Yep its packed with shuttles, talk about addiction *sigh* ohhh well the other 2 are filled with beads, jewelry findings, cabone rings, etc... Now I can actually see all my beads instead of hunting for ones i thought I had.

I finally FINALLY got my tatting corner arranged and organized to my liking. Not sure if you remember the previous MESS.

Between then and now it got worse. BUT now its better and with my hubbys new gifts it really is nice.

But what is that on my chair? Or who is that?

Carl the Caterpillar. isn't he cute, and he is so soft and cuddly and He is my tatting pal he likes to hold the shuttles and my scissors and he gives me pretty good advice too.

...and if I ever EVER EVER buy another marble or half marble again some body please shoot me. This is my stash that weighs nearly 30 pounds. Zoinks! i have a *few* (thousand) marbles

I am working on some top secret tatting that I cant show at the moment but am enjoying it. Tomorrow is my favorite day of the week Tuesday for TATTING TEA TUESDAY.

Until next post... ohhh and I nearly forgot I am very near 500 posts. Maybe a marble give away is in sight LOL

Heather's Photo of the Day May 1, 2010

I may TRY to start this photo of the day thing. It may fade in no time who knows LOL
I took this a little while ago while the sun was going down.
Its a Sassafras tree

A little gift to say *THANK YOU* to my tatting pals

A photo I had taken a few mornings ago a gorgous spring violet with the sun behind it. Its a large enough image for a desktop background click it to open up the large size then save it and use it!!

I hope you like it!!